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- TITLE FILED INVERTED
- HINGE OF THE RECORD
- SENTENCE SELF-IMPOSED
“No one has to punish me”
The executioner, printed upside down. Track nine sits at the hinge of Part II with eight files on either side, and the sleeve turns over here.
It opens on a passage from the novel about a silence that turns out to be her own. She leaves before the verdict and serves the sentence before any charge, sparing the people who tried. It shares a motif with its neighbours, code of silence and not yours, not mine, and the three play almost as one movement.
LYRICS / TRANSCRIPT
Spoken Intro
The silence.
The silence depressed me.
But it wasn't the silence of silence.
It was my own silence.
Verse 1
I disappear before the verdict
Leave while their patience hasn't worn too thin
Spare the ones who tried
They don't deserve to find out how hard I have been
It might pass for disinterest
The agony beneath it never reaches them
Now I spend days to perfect short sentences
Since when did love require evidence?
Chorus
Protective custody
I take myself away before they choose to leave
Serve the consequence ahead of any charge
So I became my own executioner
No one has to punish me
Verse 2
The lives of those who broke me
Seem to move without interruption
I ration every person I still trust
Whatever guilt exists has lost its direction
Every consequence found me first
Refrain
Protective custody
Final Review
I wanted to be lighter for people
Still resisting for a sign that I am here
I made myself impossible to carry
And impossible to keep near
I tried to keep the weight from everyone
My absence only passed it on
Outro
I am my own executioner
No one has to punish me again
I am my own executioner
I make sure the sentence never ends
Hidden Spoken Line
Thank you.
- ARTIST
- Haylie Ferguson
- EDITION
- the bell jar: victoria lucas
- LABEL
- Maison Oblique Entertainment